Uninvited Experience

 

On one of these social networking sites, I spotted a guy I used to have a crush on when I was in school. I didn’t bother to contact him...However, I did join an online community moderated by him. The community was that of our school alumni. Since he was the moderator of that community, he decided who should be a part of that and who shouldn’t. He messaged me asking if I was the same girl who played the role of a Japanese mother in one of our annual festival shows. I was quite surprised to learn that he remembered me because in school, he was this famous guy known for his extraordinary grey cells (that is exactly why I had a crush on him) and I thought he never really noticed average students like me.

Anyway, we got talking... and talking... and talking...till we both realized we were hooked on to each other. But an important factor was that we lived in two different states of India...and India is quite a big country. Nevertheless, we had to meet as then I couldn’t just do with the gifts he had sent me...the flowers, the book, the letter. I can’t say what his reason was. We met...more than once...as many times as we could meet living in different states. I had a feeling I had to meet him more often. Actually, I thought being with him forever won’t be a bad idea considering how much (I thought) we loved being with each other. I say ‘I thought’ because the actuallity of it was clear to me the day when my parents declared that they wanted me to marry as soon as possible. In India parents still have a huge say in the decisions of their child’s life. And in my case, when they said they want me married, they meant it loud and clear. However, I was sure that if I tell him that I want to marry a guy who is really fond of me and is capable of taking good care of me, they wouldn’t be unreasonable. So that day I told this guy what the scenario at home was. I told him that my parents were asking me if there is anybody specific in my mind. I couldn’t tell them the fact as I wasn’t sure about how he felt. After listening to my predicament, he had only one thing to say “I can’t help you out of this situation in any way!” I was shocked! I reminded him that what he said could mean a lot of unpleasant things... we might never get to talk to each other again! The most audacious thing he ever said and the last thing he ever said to me was, “I can’t marry you! You are so easy to get!” He charmed me in all the ways he knew. And when I WAS charmed, he said it was easy for him...he would like a more challenging game!

 

Though the song “Uninvited” wasn’t in the background ever in the days I knew this fellow, the words somehow always remind me of that bitter experience!