I didn't know I would be driving the same road again so soon. Break lights in front and behind, flags following one after another,in pursuit of the same destination. Then this song came on loud and clear..
"Chasing Cars". (Snow Patrol)
Then I realized, no matter how many times we have to be reminded, over and over, we aren't alone. EVER.
It wasn't even 18 months ago when I followed behind the greatest man I ever knew, to his final destination. Clouded and jaded, staring out a window of pouring rain with pouring tears. And here I was doing that same lap again, to the same destination. The Gates Of Heaven.
As the procession pulled in the cemetary, one car after the next, we drove right passed my father's grave to the next section, where my best friend was to lay to rest. From the time the engine started and all the way through, the song came on in cue, as if he was just along for the last ride with us all....talking through the music, with his smile shining through the words as they sung through our ears.
As I heard this song, I could here him!!!! Saying...Relaying.............
"We'll do it all, everything. On our own. We don't need anything or anyone. If I lay here, If I just lay here, would you lie with me? just forget the world. I don't quite know how to say how I feel, those three words are said too much, but not enough. Forget what we're told, before we get too old, show me a garden that's bursting into life. Waist time, chase cars around our heads. I need your grace, to remind me to find my own. All that I am, all that I ever was, is here in your perfect eyes, that's all I can see. I don't know where, confused about "how" as well, just know that these things will never change for us at all."
As I heard the lyrics and the melody follow in procession, all I could do was translate it in the way it came to me. So to you, who is reading this............Ya know, it just doesn't matter....all the hooplah at the end of the day. All the drama around you. It just doesn't matter. What matters is "life" as you were given, not life as you know it. Who we love, who loves us and show appreciation, honor and respect for eachother every day. EVERY SINGLE DAY. Not just today...not just when you need it most, but every day especially when the moments don't count. Because we only get one shot. ONE CHANCE. Then someone else is chasing you, chasing your car. Wondering, where did it go? Why? why didn't I take more time with you? And then it's gone in the blink of an eye.
You have the choice to Honor, Love and Respect those in your life, every moment you get. What do you choose?
Appreciate those you cherish and lose the ones you don't. Because someone else could be doing that for you, for them.
Don't waist time on those that won't be there down the road..Because at the end of the road, it just stops.
Who will chase your car? When what is lost is gone before you even knew you had it to give away?
What message would you say? If you could say it before it was lost, what would it be? Because now is the time. There is no later. Only time to lay it all to rest.
"Rest in Peace, my JohnBoy. I will always always always miss you, your smile, your laugh and the precious memories we have."
In loving memory of John Bartholemew
July 24, 1972 ~ April 7, 2008
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