Why Did It Have To Cost So Much?

"Put your kingdom up for sale", was a message coming in loud and clear when the second marital involvement became as far away from bliss as I have ever been. I don't stand for being second, made to feel inferior, let down by insecurities and certainly not ordered to do anything I have an ill-regard for. A step-mother is a hard enough role to step into and when the new father has a new woman to fit this role perfectly, sometimes it can be taken for granted. Way for granted as he attempts to mold and if there is no resistance at first, continues to chip away at her and make her his. Ladies, be careful how easily it becomes their game and you the player dodging weapons of mass destruction.

I would go inside of Stevie's songs whenever I wanted to feel an ultimate power over a guy, it generally worked because I got so quiet, captivating, they usually melted right along with me. Not so when your married to a pillar of strength. When you have not just ice in front of you but pure granite, it is not about to be budged in your favor. Stubborn is a concrete wall between two people or two things, in this case teamwork. His way or the highway . . . my way and some freedom but lonliness for awhile. I had to look at better prospectives offered by a whole new crowd of people. Little did I know that in my search for someone who would be interested in investing in 'the kingdom I had put up for sale', I should of asked a higher more secure price. Males have a few things on their mind, least of which is commitment. The other c-word besides the one they can refer us to, in disgust and poor taste, that they have practised well and accomplished distastefully is: control.

Years later I still listen to this song and realize each time you fail, get back up and start agai, NEVER let another person be the reason it all fell apart. Take the blame for what is your fault and if you need to sell the farm, get as much as you can for all the b.s. you put into keeping it alive ! and running. Do not sell yourself short. Stevie does not have Lindsay like she used to and probably never will again but it is both of their faults and not a simple use of the 'displacement' coping mechanism that echoes in vibrant emotional rapport here with her listeners !

Get my drift ???