Dark Clouds

I had teenage angst, but not masses of it. Much of it seemed to be manifest itself in my 20s (what can I say, I'm a late developer,) and music was always a key component of any internal drama and dialogue.

As a teenager I'd listen to ballads when I was depressed/frustrated/upset by unrequited crushes - wallowing in self pity and the odd bout of self loathing.

As I've got older I've tended to find that during these occassional lapses there are some songs that I just listen to again and again.

This song is one such example. I remember sitting in my cold college room endlessly listening to this track on a mix CD (from the now defunct new music magazine 'The Tip Sheet').

Now I don't do lyrics, so it's all about the tone and the mood of the song, and something about this spoke to me. The odd thing is that the song's actually fairly upbeat, listen to the drum machines and the atmospheric keyboards and it's hardly a wrist slasher.

Yet it was my musical comfort blanket, sometimes I simply wanted to feel a bit sad, melancholic and slightly tortured (I probably fancied myself as Byron) - there was no specific reason, it was just how I wanted to feel for a short while. [Dice by Finlay Quaye & William Orbit, or Coming Around Again by Carly Simon have much the same effect.]

Listening to the song again, I'm immediately transported back to that time and those feelings, and I don't even like tea!